So, Onward I Walk.

This has been a long day full of only one challange, the memorial service and placement of Mom's ashes in her final resting spot of a collumbarium.  Part of the challange was over when Mom died from cancer 5 December 2014.  Today was something of a conclusion of her death and the beginning of my life without her advice and input and love anymore, however, begun 17 days before.  The challange of the PCT and its mental game can at most only compare briefly to the stresses of this Fall semester for me at OSU-Tulsa (I'll address that more in 500 days or so).  Fall semester as I was unable to acheive more that 3-4 hours of sleep a night because of stresses.  Then in September a lady stoned on pills hit & totaled my car.  By the time I was trying to catch-up from all that, Dad who had been hospitalized since 16 July was diagnosed with terminal cancer and died 22 October.  About the time I was in my 3rd week of greiving his death and struggling to stay caught-up in my schooling, Mom took a turn for the worse in her 4th battle with cancer in 25 years, and died with grace, peace, and dignity 5 December.  During her last two weeks she would smile, then nod when I told her I was leaving to study or go to class.  I earned one A, two B's, and took an incomplete, which I will complete before the beginning of Spring 2015 semester.  At this point three B's and one A will be my worse semester grade-wise since I re-entered college Spring 2011 semester.  I've also earned an A and two B's already from OSU-Tulsa.
I graduated from Tulsa Community College (TCC) with Honors and a 3.68 GPA with my first  Associates May 2013, and my second May 2014.  Being an Honors student at TCC, Provost Scholar, and consistantly on president's and dean's Honor Roll earned me tuition wavers.
My grades of failure from Fall 1979 and Spring & Fall 1980 still cause me to loose my tuition waver at OSU-Tulsa because I am being "punished" by a system of laws that I fell thru the cracks of.
So, onward I walk towards the completion of my Bachelor's degree.  Most certainly Mom just might rise from the dead long enough to kick my tookis if I don't graduate college lol.  I will succeed because failure is not an option.  So, onward I walk.  Christmas Eve's day I celebrate 20 weeks sober.  And onward I walk.
Call somebody you haven't spoken with in a while and listen.  Hans